When we first found out that we were having twins, we were shocked to say the least. We had gone in for an ultrasound to find out the cause of some bleeding that I was having and wound up finding two heartbeats. I believe that every baby is a gift from God but I thought that He was off his rocker by sending us two babies at the same time. Didn't he know that would mean that we had to start from scratch again - a second crib, another car seat, a new vehicle that will hold three car seats and a Golden Retriever, more clothes, a new room for Emily and the list goes on and on. Being the money manager that I am, it was hard for me to trust that God in His infinite wisdom would provide everything that we would need (physically, mentally, emotionally
and financially).
In the past few weeks, God has shown me in a humbling way how He works in my life and in the lives of those around me. Financially things have fallen into place. The money that we need to put a new roof on our house will be there, the money for a shed out back for extra storage and for the home renovations that need to be done to get Emily's room ready have all come into place without us having to touch our savings or investments. For someone that works with money all day long and takes pride in my own ability to save and budget, something this financially unexpected shakes me to the core. I've had to learn to be gracious and humble and accept help when it is offered which is not always an easy thing for my pride to swallow. I feel I should be independent, I'm a parent for goodness sake, but I don't live in a vacuum and my life events impact those around us who love and care for us.
It has also been amazing to see how the people in our lives have rallied to support us. Not just our families, who have been there constantly - providing not only emotional support but an extra crib, maternity clothes, like new clothes for both baby and toddler, bedroom sets, strollers, highchairs and the list goes on and on and on - but also those in our surrounding communities - work, church and friends. Offers have poured in from those around us for extra bassinets, bouncy chairs, bedding, exersaucers and the like. People are always asking how we are doing and how things are going. And then there is my friend Bek, who has twin girls herself, who has been a beacon of support with words of wisdom - not just telling me what I want to hear, but what I need to hear when I need to hear it.
Finding out that you are suddenly going to jump from one child under the age of two to three under the age of two is terrifying at best but God has put the right people in the right places to show me that no matter what "His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me".